Day 21 (belated) - Picture of Something that Makes Me Happy

He makes me most happy: El Rey.

Day 20- Future Significant Others

Without going into details because blogs aren't a place to discuss this

The person I could see being with in the future lives far away, is far too busy, and far too smart.

But I could see it happening.

Day 19(belated)-Nicknames and Why

Monkeybuddy- I gave my friend Anne a Curious George stuffed animal and the phrase "Zieg Heil Monkey buddy" came into use that night, since it looked like Curious George was doing the "Zieg Heil" motion.

Variations on the name "Max"=Maximillion, Maxwell, Maxwell Silverhammer, Maximus

just because it's a fun name to do that with.

Sharkbait- My freshman year nick name at the Auditorium a la Nemo in Finding Nemo.

I can't remember any others.

Day 18 - Plans/Dreams/Goals

Plans:

1.) I am graduating in the Spring (or if needed Summer) of 2011 from Truman State University with a degree in theatre.

2.) I plan to leave Kirksville in a cloud of dust for somewhere quite a bit aways, most likely gone from the state of MO. If I am in MO, I'm planning to be in one of it's two metropolitan areas (StL or KC)

3.) I plan to get into the best shape I've been in since Kentucky to play the part of Lewis, The Dauphin for our production of King John or John of England if you prefer

4.) To tear the stage asunder as Lewis (The Dauphin) in King John. not in a show stealing, selfish kind of way, though.

4.) I'm planning on reading the first 4 chapters of Gogol's "Dead Souls" today, since it's my homework.

5.) I plan to continue to hug tragedy/hardship/sucktitude everyday and invite it in for coffee/beer/what you will because nothing has made coping with life a little easier than making friends with my hardships.

Dreams:

-I want a family someday. Like, a wife or partner and a kid or two of my own to teach everything I know. In said dream the kid(s) would mostly be open to listening to me, even though I predict I"m going to be a really dorky father, and my wife and I will have each other's back through thick and thin.

-That said I dream of being in love again. At some point. I'm not in a hurry anymore. I get nostalgic sometimes for those days when my heart belonged to someone else and I recognize now is no longer that place but I dream of once again feeling that.

-I dream of having a chance to give back to my family and my mentors through hopefully accruing a windfall ( lottery?) and providing money for education, relocation, and renovation.

-I want to be in a position to make a change in the world, big or small. This would be through performing theatre, teaching theatre to those who do not have access to it, or providing the opportunity for theatre or art or just something. I mean, it's sort of a heartsick idealism but I really want to change the world someday. It's the superhero complex/alcoholic kids complex I have in me.

-I dream of being fully unafraid to be the person I am and the person I'm meant to be. I've made strong strides toward that this past summer and during the school year but I'm still shy, secretive, and wrestling with a guilty conscious. I think dancing is the key to finding it. I always feel more myself after i've head banged a little and my body is set afire in motion to music. I don't know if to an outsider I transform when I dance but I certainly feel like I do internally. I just generally get nervous around people.

Goals:

-I want to complete a triathlon. Very, very soon.

-I want to be able to do a handstand and handstand push ups. Even sooner

-I want to learn a martial art. Preferably a hard martial art but most things will do.

-Find a church/organization to belong to once I leave Truman. I identify as a Unitarian Universalist/Christian Unitarian/something. I'd like to find a home for that.

-Become a certified stage combatant in a variety of weapons and eventually become an instructor

-Continue to not punish myself too much for screw ups. I'm not used to this kind of levity on myself so I want to continue it.

-Direct "I am not Batman" at some point soon.

I could list a lot longer, but I think this is enough of a window in.

Day 17

If I were to switch lives for a day and why...


Probably my 'brother' James. I'd love to know what it's like for a day to be apart of a brotherhood like the marine corps and to be as respected and venerated as he is. He's an immensely capable young officer, one of the most athletic, fit, and determined people I've ever met and I'd love to walk in his boots for a day.


While I consider myself a hard worker, I continually aspire to work like him. Though we've both admitted we admire the other for different reasons so I'm sure for a day he wouldn't mind dealing with theatre folks. Hehe.

Intermission

"The Only Easy Day Was Yesterday"

Ponder that.

Day 16

This is the shaggiest and scruffiest I've been in two years.